Many of you have been following my words for quite some time now and I have nothing but gratitude to express for that. In the past few days I’ve felt it is time to bare my soul and talk about the man behind The Scandalous Philosophies (now Scanphilosophy), and that man is I, Jamie Scanlon.
I’ve been letting snippets of my inner being out for quite some time, some well received, others not. My goal is not to win friends, nor to lose any, but to get people thinking and talking about issues facing we humans of the current day.
Many people ask me where I come up with some of the stuff that I write about, where I come up with some of my crazy theories about life and how one human can have so many abstract questions in a world of people that cannot answer them. Well, I’m about to let you into a part of my life that only a few know about as I feel it’s time.
Many of you that know me perhaps know that I am a bit of an oddball at time. I don’t quite see the world as others do and am not afraid to make it known. For those that have been following my words and have never met me, I have decided, after much consideration and discussion, to let you into the world of my mind, the mind of Jamie Scanlon and the mind behind The Scandalous Philosophies.
Why? Might you ask, well, I’ve been thinking about the answer to that question for a few days and as much as I was hoping to come up with something so cryptic that it would snap the frontal lobe of my readers, I decided to get out of my own way and be honest and raw.
I’ve decided to pen, or key as it were this piece for the following reasons. I have a belief that inside of everyone, is something special, something which we have known since we came back into the world in this lifetime. Something which shone from us as children, something we did without effort. Unfortunately for a lot of us, it is our most special talents that we hide, for fear of being different. Because at some point during our years as sponges, absorbing all there is to absorb, someone told us to not do it, be it or say it.
Many that know me also would know that I am generally a private person when it comes to my life. I’ve spent 32 years building a really nice solid wall and I have become quite fond of it. It keeps what I don’t want out, and it keeps me from letting out things too, just the way I like it, or so I thought for so long.
I’ll continue now with a little story about how this piece came to be and why I felt compelled to share it with you.
It was back in 2011 when a friend of mine who I was living with went and saw a clairvoyant. We were talking about it afterwards and she mentioned how I specifically came up in her reading a couple of times. So me, being the skeptic that I am and the type of being that will continue to argue even when I know I am wrong for the hope of somehow being right, decided to book a reading to check this out for myself.
Now at this point, I should mention that I have always had a fascination with this other world we so often hear of – the world of gypsies and psychics, and all things fantasy that we see only in the realms of our minds eye and our dreams. Psychics and the world they live in have always fascinated me, the stars, the planets, the moon and the universe are facets of which I have always felt like I’ve had a deep understanding. Something I have done every day for as long as I can remember without fail is read my horoscope, say what you will, it works for me. I’ve always felt the presence of someone around me since I was a child but I quickly learnt that in this world there are some things we must not speak of around certain people, until we find the right people that is.
So one of the first things the psychic says to me is that my grandmother on my dad’s side was with me in the room. She went on to describe her, her energy, why she was around and that she was a spirit guide to me. Now, I was born in 1983 and she died in 1976 so I never had the chance to meet or get to know her. I had only seen a picture of her in our farmhouse in her heyday, one of those classic pictures of the 70’s in black and white, hair set, makeup done, and just looking glamorous in general. Upon hearing this information, a strange sensation came over me and I began replaying flash backs of my life in my mind’s eye. I’ve always had a knowing that someone or something around me, has been guiding me, protecting me, loving me and generally showing me the way, however I never thought to question it. I remember whenever my grandmother would get talked about in old stories; I would see a vivid image of her and in some cases hear her voice. The investigative aspect of me decided that I would need more information after this reading to confirm all that I was being told. So the reading went on and more and more things were discussed – and then the psychic paused for a moment – she became quite excited and told me that another guide had come into the room. She described this guide as a Red Indian male, that we had known each other in a past life and that he was here to provide me with courage. Courage for the many changes that were in store for me, though, I was not to understand the magnitude of these changes at the time.
So imagine now, this adult human version of a child who had felt like he had a knowing of another world his entire life, and these beings surrounding him, guiding him and assuring him, sitting there hearing what felt like gospel.
So the reading was done and off I went back to life.
Flash forward a short while later and things started happening. I started asking questions about my grandmother and more and more, things were starting to add up. I was nervous and excited all at the same time. And then I remember seeing a picture of her when she would have been in her late fifties or sixties and knowing right there and then, that this was the woman who had been around me since birth and still is to this day.
So it was in the year or so leading up to my Saturn Return that I really delved into the spiritual side of my being and the world as we know it. I began accumulating crystals like they were going out of fashion, I became a Reiki Master healer, and then a Seichim Master healer, and then I studied the Tarot Cards, Numerology and Astrology. I was hungry for more information and could not get enough of it quick enough. At some point during this period I came to the realisation that all of these opportunities must have been coming my way for a reason, and whilst I had no idea at the time, I had a knowing that it was all meant to be.
“There is nothing more important to true growth than realising that you are not the voice of the mind – you are the one who hears it.” Michael Singer
So flash forward a little while on. When we start to ask the big questions in life, we enter an interesting period where by the mundane crap we’ve been doing day in and day out appears to lose all meaning. Things just don’t seem to give us as much satisfaction as they used to. We start things, we stop things, we try things, we try too hard to fill a void, but is this a void that we actually create ourselves? Or is it there all along just waiting for us to realise? Of this I’m not quite sure.
So life was feeling old and boring, I was working the same jobs, doing the same things during the days and the weekends, going through the motions as they say. Then I had an opportunity to go and work remote for three months. It came out of nowhere and it came at the exact time I needed it. This is where The Scandalous Philosophies was born. This was where I decided to start sharing my words with the world instead of saving them in a folder on my laptop as I’d been doing for years. It was one of the most nerve-wracking periods of my life.
Consider this, a mostly private person who, even when the walls were caving in, would still manage to put on a smile and carry on as if everything was ok, but was falling apart when no one was around, was about to unleash his honest truths to the masses and let people in.
To my delight, my words were, and have been well received by those who read them. It inspires me to keep going, to keep learning, to keep talking, to keep living and to keep documenting my views on the goings on in the world as we know it, and also the other one that I know of.
So here we are at this piece. It was just a couple of weeks ago where I was feeling quite disconnected from myself and was again, going through the motions. Now for anyone who has a habit of falling into repetitive patterns of behaviours time and time again, you’ll know what I am talking about. So instead of resorting to alcohol, cigarettes and all things external, I started looking for guided meditations on YouTube with the specific intent of connecting with my spirit guides. I will say here that I do communicate with them on a daily basis and over time have accumulated a few more, but I had a feeling that someone else had popped in and that I was yet to actually meet them.
So off I go on a rainy Saturday afternoon into a blissful meditative state. I head into the grandest library that you have ever seen, one out of the history books. With shelves as far as the eye can see and many, many books. It’s at this point that I feel a presence, a warm, calm and loving presence. I look to my right and there is an older lady with long grey hair, eyes that can see into your soul and the most peaceful subtle grin on her face. So from here I am told to choose some books, based purely on intuition and nothing else. The first book to come to me is one on trust, the second on wisdom, the third on knowledge. From here we went out on to the terrace to sit and read them, and then from there, the terrace turned into the most serene cliff face at the edge of a waterfall I’ve ever seen. We sat in peace, and we read. At no point were there any words actually spoken, though the looks we gave each other said more than words ever could. The time came to leave, so I left. I came out of this meditation in an overwhelming state of bliss and to be honest, was a little unsteady on my feet for a short while after. I reflected in the following days on the themes of the books and penned some notes about them.
A few days later, that restless feeling crept in again. I paced around for a while in a state and then decided that the only thing that could fix this was to see this woman again. At this point, my curiosity was heightened, I had to know more about her, I had to speak to her, I did not even know her name!
So back to YouTube I go and into a state of meditation. I arrived at the same library as I did in the days before, and again I felt the same warm and loving presence come in behind me. We proceeded up a set of stairs and I then selected some books. Again, trust, wisdom and knowledge. We proceeded to head outside to the terrace that to no surprise, transformed again into a waterfall and cliff edge where we sat. I looked into her eyes and in my minds voice, I asked for a name. Consuela was the response. We spoke for a while, she told me much information about where my life and where it is heading, and provided me with much reassurance that all was on track. It was during this conversation that she told me that it was time to take down the wall, time to be who I am and time to tell the story. The story being that which you are reading now.
I was telling some colleagues at work about my profound experience with this woman and that her name was Consuela, at which point one of them reacted with excitement and shared the meaning of the name, which I will share with you now.
The name Consuela is a baby girl name.
The name Consuela is a Latin baby name. In Latin the meaning of the name Consuela is: Consolation.
The name Consuela is a Spanish baby name. In Spanish the meaning of the name Consuela is: Consolation.
SoulUrge Number: 6
People with this name have a deep inner desire for a stable, loving family or community, and a need to work with others and to be appreciated.
Expression Number: 9
People with this name tend to be passionate, compassionate, intuitive, romantic, and to have magnetic personalities. They are usually humanitarian, broadminded and generous, and tend to follow professions where they can serve humanity. Because they are so affectionate and giving, they may be imposed on. They are romantic and easily fall in love, but may be easily hurt and are sometimes quick-tempered.
Whilst part of me was almost shocked, the larger part of me knew how much sense this made. So rather than overthinking it, I decided to leave the thoughts there and bask in the knowing – something that is out of my comfort zone, although I’ve managed to become quite comfortable there now.
Earlier in the piece I asked why, why now? What is my intention in writing this? What do I intend to gain from it?
Well my answer has not changed. I still believe that each of us has that special thing inside of us that we become afraid to share with the world over time. At the same time it becomes all-consuming to the point where we must do something with it, before it manifests into something that does not serve us.
I know that there is a mass unrest amongst humans right now, and that there has been for quite some time. I know that we need huge change and I know that I am capable of leading it or being a part of it in some way, shape or form. So basically, I thought fuck it, I’m going to bare my soul to the masses for no other reason than it is time.
So it’s as simple as that.
I’d like to share a couple of quotes and also a video that I refer to from time to time when I am feeling lost.
The first is from the book Return to Love by Marianne Williamson. This book was referred to me by a good friend and it literally changed my entire outlook on my life and the way I look at others. It isn’t often that I make a statement such as this, but I felt I had to make an exception in this case.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
The second is by Chuck Palahniuk
“The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create.”
So I’ll leave you here now. I laugh as I write this piece because psychology would perhaps have me diagnosed with some kind of disorder following the disclosure of the above information. I have no doubt that if I spoke these taboo topics in the 1950s, I would have surely been locked up. However, perhaps if I was alive in the fifties, the world now might be a different place today. I guess we’ll never know.
I’d like to say thank you to all of the loyal supporters of my writing and various ventures that I embark on, and I sincerely hope what I have told you today has somehow helped you with yours.