Having begun my quest for my purpose many years ago, the moment that I would arrive at a sense of peace and belonging seemed like the light at the end of the tunnel I would never reach. I read all of the books, watched all of the YouTube videos, I sat still, I watched, listened, I meditated. I did everything that those who had come before me told me to do in order to get there. The absolute strain on my mind and body became unbearable at times, but I kept telling myself that it would all be worth it one day and that there were larger forces at work guiding me to where I was meant to be. I feel like my time has come for me to put the theory into practice, I am living in flow.
So here I sit, up the top of Queensland, Australia, in a wonderful and magical part of the world called Port Douglas. I set no intentions prior to coming here, apart from one, that I would finally give myself the rest and break from a hectic life in the city that I have been living for quite some time now. So here I am, mid week, after a morning of Yoga, massage and swimming and after having two incredibly inspiring conversations with two complete strangers that I met today. On top of having two more incredible conversations about life and the world with two other wonderful beings I met here earlier in the week, I am truly appreciating how far I have come and where I am right now.
I’d go as far to say that never, until this week, have I felt so on track, so calm, so at ease and in constant awe of my surroundings. The beauty of the scenery and that of the people here is like nothing else I have experienced to date. There is a certain magic in the air in this place, one which the locals all know of and the visitors come from far and wide to see, hear and feel. One local said that if nothing else, please try and take a piece of this place home with you and keep it within you for the rest of your days. That I will.
It’s easy to settle into days of laying around, swimming at the beach and in amazing resorts, eating amazing meals whenever you feel like it, not just on your allocated break time. It is also easy to feel that the world we return to after this time of rest and relaxation is one, which causes great stress and anxiety, despite the fact that we are more than capable of handling it. What I am finding easy right at this moment is the knowing that all I need in this life is within me and that the more I concentrate on that, the more that other people and new experiences are gravitating toward me and I feel a true sense of growth, a rebirth if you will.
There is this notion of the Universe and what it does, a notion perhaps that it is something that is much, much bigger than us and is something that is out of reach. I, however, have always had a belief that the Universe reverberates back to us through many mediums. It is the conversations we strike up out of nowhere that go everywhere. Those that answer many of the questions we’ve had pent up in our minds for so long, but felt at times that we could not voice them. It is when you are getting the answers to your questions via other people, that the Universe is prompting you to stop and pause for a moment, and realise that this IS the Universe in action. It is literally all around us and has been the entire time, but it knows that though we start out this life incredibly close and connected to it, we must go out into the world as we know it and become disconnected from it in order to appreciate it. It knows that we will always gravitate back and come home, come back to where we feel calm, loved and warm, where we feel satisfied and whole.
It is the absence of thought and the presence of action. Sure, thoughts will sometimes prompt you a little further down the road, but it is being present and taking action that will really get you there. It is quieting down all of the noise and static that we allow our minds to fill up with that at times, that can become all consuming and steer us to destinations where we wake up wondering how we got there.
Here lie the feelings in our stomachs that are the queue that we should be looking to make a change, be it big or small, it’s your choice to take notice of that feeling or not, and choose to act on it or not.
This is living in flow, according to my experience of it anyway. It is the knowing that it is all going to be ok, the knowing that we are capable of dealing with whatever comes our way, be it good or bad, both can be equally as terrifying. It is important also to point out, that it is being proud of ourselves, also for the good and the bad things that happen and knowing that we did and will always do our best we can at the time, with the information we have available to us, for we can do no more, nor no less. The saying goes that happiness is a state of mind, but at this point, I would say that everything, ever, is a state of mind, nothing more, nothing less, and that state of mind determines all that we chose to do when we come back here.